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Games, Personal

Seeking Inspiration – [Gaming]

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Dear Readers of ZeroXR 13mg,

I come to you seeking help… I am one of those odd gamers that comes so close to beating a game and sometimes I end up just not wanting to beat it. This has me split down the line between 2 games…

(PSP) Castlevania: The Dracula X Chronicles
(NDS) The Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass

Currently, I am grinding through (PSP) Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core so I am about done with that. I have Patapon which is sitting on the backburner until I can finish games that need to be done and gone with. My request is… After Crisis Core, which game should I finish next? I know my poor DS has been a tad neglected, so my inclination is leaning more to Phantom Hourglass, but I do need more compelling testimony to assist me. Drop a comment and let me know!

For those of you who are more fixated on the winner of my contest… That will be up soon.

Much love,
My \

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The Sleeping Goddess Muses…

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“What will become of us when the Goddess awakens? Will humanity cease to exist?”

It’s been a line of “poetry” that has ceaselessly bothered me most of this week. I can’t remember the rest of the poetry, but it just has me thinking about the “frail” existence of humanity. Face it, humans have done some pretty poor things to the planet and now all the sudden we are singing high praises  saying “The planet is important!” It almost somewhat after-the-fact of decades worth of going “Global warming, hogwash!” to now singing a tune of “We’ve gone green! How about you?” Then you have to reflect on disasters like blight, famine, pestilence, and even weather related disasters… Gaia, the earth mother, must be pissed as hell at us. As humans, we can be rather destructive to our planet. Some would even speculate that we are destructive by nature. All we can do is wait until December 21, 2012 and see what happens when the Goddess awakens.

PS – If you haven’t already… Check out the Bluetooth headset reviews and contest!

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Hang-Out Invitation!

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Well, it’s a lovely weekend and I could use a good end to a chapter of my life. I invite you all to hang out with me and just be yourselves and possibly mingle with each other… Here’s the formal “invitation” form, click it to view it in its glory. If you have my contact data, gimme a call and maybe we can all converge at one place. If no one responds, no big deal… no hurt feelings here.

Fitness, Personal

Late Night Squats – Punishment Game III delayed

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The humidity was once again bugging me that I couldn’t take it. I tried everything and still failed to hit the hay… so I decided to try to do a round of squats and lunges in hopes of stimulating quad growth. My family had some 10 lbs dumbbells so I used those to stack more resistance than just using my own weight and gravity. Ended up just doing a set of 12 squats, 12 forward lunges (that’s per side), and then 12 reverse lunges (per side). I am pretty exhausted so whenever my dopamine response says I think you need sleep, that’ll be when I hit the hay.

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(Preview) Taking Back Financial Control… With the help of Mint and Xpenser

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I have decided to try to enlist the help of Mint and Xpenser to try monitoring and tracking my expenses. I am more curious to see how the next month’s expenditures will go. Mint is a great financial tool as it can analyze your transactions and even do trend reports over your spending habits by linking to your bank accounts and/or credit cards. The site is SSL encrypted and it does mask off your account numbers in case someone decides to try glance over your shoulder. It’s pretty cool as you can analyze your transactions and see where a bulk of your cash goes or the site can even recommend better credit cards that could be better than the ones you have. Scary thing is most of my cash is going to my car note and Wal-Mart… not “shopping”, dining, or drinking. That alone is shocking.

Xpenser is a different tool. It’s more of an expense log to allow you to invoice your purchases to see how your budgeting is going. It’s great for when you don’t want to hold on to that receipt of yours just to log it. Xpenser is pretty slick as you can make “invoices” via the web application from the website, send an IM via AIM, call with a phone, or even text message!

I am going to give it a try for a month and see how much it can help me curb my spending and help me repay my family faster. I also managed to find the advice I need and I may just have the craziest plan ever… I can’t WAIT for May 21st!

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Punishment Game II – Crunches until I could crunch no more.

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I let the Avenged Sevenfold single “Warmness of the Soul” play on Suzaku while I did my second punishment game on working out to failure. The full sit-ups were great but the crunches throughly wore me out. The last one I could muster before I just plain couldn’t trudge along anymore were the jack-knife sit-ups. I think the exhaustion from the crunches setting in killed me. I finally was wore the hell out. Tomorrow, I have plans for Punishment Game III and the target will be my arms and chest. My body will hate me, but when the muscle grows even larger, I don’t think they’ll mind me amping up the challenge.

70 full sit-ups, 200 crunches, 40 jack-knife sit-ups

A new day, a new stimuli! If you’re a Family Guy fan… you’ll recognize this dialog from the 6th season

Joe: “C’mon dudes let’s go exercise!”
Quentin: “EXERCISE!!!”
Joe: “YEAH!!!!!”
Parker: “I’m gonna do sit-ups until I poop myself!”

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Work Out Plan for Tonight – Punishment Game II

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I worked my quads pretty hard last night, so I expect them to be pretty sore by tonight. Tonight, I have another punishment game lined up for tonight, this time… I am moving the target zone up. It’ll be an ab crunch cycle until I just plain can’t do any more. Right now I can’t go to the gym from watching the mileage on my car… so gravity or manual work outs are my best bet until I get my car done.

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“He’s Breathing and We Have a Pulse!”

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Well, the last few days have been rather odd and erratic. Most of you all who have been concerned have stopped by to read and then throw me a message, phone call, text message just to make sure I was far from suicidal. I appreciated that and it makes me glad to have friends like you all. I know that in my subconscious dreams, it’s been a rather odd time.

I have been in a hospital bed for the past 3 days in my dream world, hooked up to IV’s of TPN’s, pain drug drips, and other things to try to sustain my ethereal existence. I had the best “bedside” being that it was just my hospital bed on the shore of the beach. The Stone Maiden that I have dreamed about in the past 5 years was there… Holding two swords that I typically wield in the dream world: The Death Blade and Sacred Edge. There were also 3 other swords-wielding warriors with the Stone Maiden watching my vitals on the hospital equipment as well as monitoring my IV pumps. I was comatose and just laying in silence as the waves crashed gently on the shore. It wouldn’t be until last night that I would finally come to. The Stone Maiden held me close as if she had feared possibly losing me. The other warriors smiled that I was finally able to look up and smile at the beach.

For once, it was nice not to be locked into a mission where I need to slay 500 mutated animals that have been injected with demonic essences and set loose in a city. The healing is mainly what was really symbolic in the dream… The matter that I could finally break out of my coma, breath on my own, and kick my pulse back in rhythm is definitely important.

I think with the healing in reality and my subconscious has done one thing… kicked me back to my smiling, optimistic, and courageous self. I have spent 3 years kicking myself and downing myself, it’s time to say “I am a great guy!” and embrace it!

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Week’s Agenda

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This week will be a fairly busy one…

Fitness – I will be ramping up my workout as the sorrow that had burdened me finally has been lifted. I need to bulk up more adipose tissue on my weaker bits and push to excel. Expect some super intense changes.

Technology Reviews – I will be picking up my BlueAnt Z9 and hopefully arrange for a model, photographer, and possibly dinner compensation to do my shoot-out review of the Jawbone vs the Z9. After the review goes live… The contest for the “losing” headset goes live!

Game Reviews – I need to fucking finish Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core so I can post my thoughts on it. Patapon, I am struggling with the rain dance beat.

Personal – I need to write an IDP for myself and post it here to “review” my performance as a human being. I should also try to clean up my office as well, cause I am piled up in mail.

This week will dawn a new era for Zero at the offices of ZeroXR 13mg… I just gotta find a way to survive weekend shift cubicle warfare at the office from 10:30am – 6pm to hopefully arrive at Bonny’s home and help her with her project. All I can do is carpe diem and power through!

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A Tribute of Thanks and Finding Forgiveness

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I would like to thank the following few folks for keeping me from doing something stupid or kicking the bucket. You all may have done something small, but to me… It means a whole lot. It’s good to know that help is not far with you all around to give me an inspiring set of words or just a simple “Are you ok?” This one goes out to all of you all who just kept messaging me and trying to keep me sane and from picking myself apart.

Bonny, you have my thanks for hearing me out and having me hang out with Hai and the gang. It helped me end things on a good note, so I am very grateful for the reality check.

Linda, thanks for all the consoling on the last few days. It means a lot to me when you shoot a simple message just to make sure that I am alright.

Merinda, thanks for shooting me inspiring messages all day to keep me going. It made surviving work a little easier.

Amanda, thanks for at least letting me know that I should need not worry about myself. I know you have mentioned that I should be seeking my own merits rather than fracturing them.

She, my thanks for shooting a message to make sure I am ok. Hopefully, you got my message about what all happened.

Rei, thanks for the phone call… It was probably like the IV line I needed that was full of reason. I know I have been tearing myself to shreds but the reason made it all hit home.

Cousin Sol, you sir… you went above and beyond. Your urgency to my situation was like that of a combat medic. Thanks for being there for me and hearing me out on my phone call.

Desiree, you have my appreciation for checking to make sure I was alright.

Jan, even though you’re my assistant manager… You’re like a mother and a close friend to me. Thank you for your encouraging words, they mean the most to me.

Lastly… Twitch, thanks for your insight on things and giving me advice that was almost like the quelling dose of IV Dilaudid. It wasn’t quite what I hoped for, but in the end, it was like the best course of therapy.

From the 9 folks of the above… They all had one theme in common in their kind advice:

Forgive yourself, because above all things… you’re human.

I realize I have forsaken myself many times all because I couldn’t realize that I had my own merits. All I can do is be driven by my own hopes and dreams in search of strength. I need to fuel myself harder on tearing more new adipose tissue. I will have to fight hard with Commerce on the way to get my degree. The most important quest of all is to realize myself, my potential, and that I am ultimately a good person.

The most important pearl of advice is from Merinda:

Never lose your dreams and honor, that’s what separates you from others in this world.