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Silent Riot, Chaotic Paradise – [Zeroism/Editorial]

This phrase has been ringing my head for the longest while… The oxymoron is rather unique. With some, it makes them think of a utopia that is chaotic to the masses, but a perfect system to the intellectuals. Some said it rang close to a quiet overthrow of a system in favor of an anarchistic system. “Silent but deadly”, a maelstrom of chaos that brews from the inside and establishes a chaotic order. Another unique view I got was “It seems like an ideal island of solitude”. These all almost sync up to my main thought… The phrase empathizes the greatest struggle of humanity: The struggle between what is ideal for the self and the ideals of the society.

As humans, we do what is best to ensure our comfort and survival. Face it, we really hate suffering. I know I personally just got out of a 4 year crawl in Hell and it’s great to finally be comfortable with a pleasant survival. I mean, save for masochists, who likes waking up in the morning to go “Hell yes! I can’t wait for some crazed maniac to take a claymore and impale me! Oh yeah!!!“? I know I don’t like the mental image of that idea. Take a look at some of what inspires and motivates humans… Sex, love, money, material delusions (alcohol et al). In my observation, this breaks down to a two sided system for what we want: pleasure and reward.

Society however doesn’t take lightly to these lofty principles… Society attempts to run on a paradigm of productivity and innovation. If a person isn’t adding something useful to a society, they are seen more as a “problem” or a “nuisance” to be removed or assimilated. This is a very black and white system, but even society cannot hinder the fact some gray areas can exist… Every now and then, we have those who lash out against the system. The results vary… some can succeed, some may end up failing at their aims to subvert the system.

Where do we find that fine line? We can do battle and be much like the revolutionary predecessors in hopes that society will bend to our will or the lingering question remains: “Do I have to be society’s bitch?” This is one battle that everyone struggles with internally. The scale could be minor to something small like choosing not to do a vital report for your office or something major like create an uprising against one’s own government. In some ways, fighting for one’s own belief system can be seen as “selfish” or “reckless” though it just ultimately comes down on how much we value something. The way I see it is more “Are you willing to put for the silent protest in your heart out to the world for a chance at sharing your own personal paradise, even if society cannot fathom the beauty of your own chaos?”

Sometimes, we can’t sway society… At the same time, we can’t also put forth our dreams into action because it would jeopardize the lives and/or minds of others. I can say that everyone has this struggle in their heart at some point and time; unfortunately, we may be left in our own toilings. We may just be left in our own silent riot, chaotic paradise within our minds.

[Zeroism] The 13 Sins, Dissolution of the Self, and The Force of Will

In my road to perdition… I did many things that were not part of any good human philosophy. Lots of things I had done involved the pain and anguish of others. That, in turn, really backlogged the karmic pool with vile backlash points that were ready to explode out like a cannon when it was my due time to pay my price. That would happen at my “ripe” age of 19 and I would see what nearly 3 years of sin brought me. The power of my own vile sins just had turned my life to complete failure. I had built up my life on a philosophy that was destructive on myself and it cost me the friendships of many friends with the loss of many hours of progress.

Essentially, this was the dissolution of my mental and spiritual being. In my personal “philosophy” of ZeroXR, this is the “clearing of the slate” portion in “The Way of Perfection”. I can say that I was a shambling pile of flesh that could not properly function in a society governed by rational logic in this stage. I will not lie that I was in no way healthy enough to even carry on living with how much of a mess I was. There was one person though who helped me rebuild from the fallen ramparts of myself… That was probably the focal point of my rebuilding. They had served as almost like the meticulous builder of a complex engine of neural synapses and vividly delicate cranial matter to piece me back together as a human being. I will say that even today, I still talk to mentor and I sing their praises because I would not be around had they not helped me.

The only matter that was really pressing then became “How do I pursue perfection and never slip away once more?”

With slipping away, that would mean another fall away from the philosophy of ZeroXR. I didn’t want to become that human again who was a shambling mess… I wanted to be the hero I was again. The man who honored himself and also honored his friends and family. The big thing that mattered was that I needed to empower myself with the force of will. The innate power that we as humans have that reinforces our stand on things and issues that matter the most to us. I had to find the strength to grab hold of the reins of my life and follow through the work of my mentor had layed out so well. I did not want her work to have been in vain.

Finding my own force of will as a very sensitive matter as I had to come to rely on myself as a human, rather than hope and pray for a savior to continually infuse me via an IV line. I had to find strength within myself to realize that I am a great person. Sure, my past was a personal Hell, but even through that… I had to keep it as a lesson of the past. My reputation as a human had gone to the garbage, but I really couldn’t do much, as I shouldn’t need to. I had to realize I had long standing friends who had weathered out the storm with me. Ultimately, I had to realize that I was inately strong from the inside. I had to forgive myself to realize that everyone is not without sin, but at the same right, being human entitles us to a chance at forgiveness.

Forgiveness is one thing that makes the force of will possible, but when we wallow in our own mortal suffering… We essentially deny ourselves the power of our own will. This step is vital as we cannot begin the journey to personal perfection without forgiving ourselves. Be it if we have 13 sins or 1,000 sins, it doesn’t matter as all things can be forgiven if we can learn to accept ourselves. Even when we fall to broken ramparts, we still do have a chance for redemption.

Zeroism: The Way of Perfection [Editorial Special]

Lately, my friends and associates have hit quite a bad time with their lives falling apart this summer. Honestly, it’s almost coincidental with the fact of summer love or summer dreaming… A few nights ago, one of my readers had said she had broke her relationship off with the man she was seeing because she finally found out he had failed out of school. This failing started a chain reaction that his family has restricted his social life and it failed to instill in him a drive to want to do better. She said it has depressed her, but at the same time she wants to be there for him and hope to instill in him some hope of moving forward.

I was sorely reminded of the Heaven and Hell I went through with living life at the bottom and knowing that I was simmering in the suffering of my own self. Sure I had someone else with me, but that person also brought me down to absolute destruction. At the time, I played it off as nothing, but in reflection, I was in the Hell of all human possible Hells… Ignorance to the truth that I was nothing, I had nothing, and I refused to accept myself for the person I was. It just got me thinking of one of the old martial arts proverbs:

Why struggle with catching a carp in murky water? By the time you think you realized you have forever lost it, the carp may have ascended to Heaven and become a dragon.

The problem most of us have with hitting rock bottom is that we struggle to accept who we are. We keep trying to “fish” for the character flaws within us hoping to ensnare them… but by the time we realize that our character flaws are a part of what makes us human… We have wasted valuable time that could have been used to better ourselves or fish for more skills that make use of our unique humanity. Unfortunately with humanity comes with the caveat that we, ourselves, must figure our needless struggle should not even exist… That we must be like the waters of a river that erode the stone and flow around our adversities.

No one can help us in this darkness with simple inspiration, we must find the strength within ourselves and possibly find mentors who foster nurturing intent in order to guide us on our own personal path. This path that we can choose or choose not to walk is what I call “The Way of Perfection”. The path to greatness is one that differs uniquely from person to person. Some of us may have one that starts easy and ramps upwards… some have it difficult and it pushes to the “ungodly” limitations of their own human faith. The one thing in common that everyone shares on this journey to perfection is that there is always an intrapersonal struggle within ourselves. There will always be the one thing that will make us question our previous definitions of personal integrity and honor… Once we cleave that into a manageable topic that no longer overwhelms us. We can finally get into the stage where we can begin polishing the rough gems and refine the facets of our personalities from rough diamonds into works of beauty.

I won’t lie that the journey is hard… I finally started my journey a while back after coming to terms with myself, but through the challenges brought to me… I have not let my strength waiver. If anything, I look forward to harder challenges later in the future with hopes to really break down barriers that have lost their ability to bind me. From accepting myself, I can say I was ignorant for ignoring my own potentials. I know I am limitless now and that with my educational career just a little over half way done, I can aspire to my dreams.

This is in dedication to those readers out there who have been fighting for so long and with no hope in sight. Let this be a tribute to you and a prayer that you all will find greatness as long as you keep your mind to it.