Some may have noticed that I haven’t posted any fitness logs for the past few days… It’s been hectic with New Years hours at the office and a few things throwing a wrench in my plans. I know that I should be kicking it up a notch, but the numbing mental exhaustion of fighting a chaotic front at work and another at home just overwhelm me. I hope to get some hours in on this coming weekend, as I owe it to myself to feel great.

The office has wracked my mind with just a numbing conundrum of problems. Missing files and dead end paper trails, inventory that’s out of wack,  just things that are becoming both a legal issue and a safety concern. I am greatly afraid that if my superiors don’t hammer these issues out, it will not bode well with corporate officials. I have strained my mind to find answers to these problems and I simply can’t pin-point it spot on. It gets so bad that sometimes I even have nightmares about the office where I catch myself screaming “no… no..! Not the damn papers!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!” on awaking. Well… not that dramatic, but you get my drift. From my concerns and even my new partner picking up rapidly on my worries, my superiors have decided to make a safety meeting. Unfortunately, it’ll be before our dinner at The Cheesecake Factory as a “Christmas Dinner” event because we can’t just close the office for a 35 minute – 1 hour meeting about safety issues versus national trends. The good part is not being in uniform, so I may suit up in my nice clothes to enjoy the festivities after the safety meeting.

Tomorrow, I take a trip to possibly throw the dice on a gamble that may be the best thing I have considered. Sure, it’s a 2 hour trip west of Dallas, but if the cards line up right… I may have found my ticket out of a purgatory that has been my life for the past 2 years. Being on the line for academic Hell sucks and I want to push my life towards the better. I am getting a grand tour and hopefully the investment of time will be worth the day. In the case that the gamble is a failure, it just means I need to look at some of my other options. I know the stakes of tomorrow being a total bust or “snake eyes” is a fair 50/50, so it’s all on how it plays out. The first “blind” doesn’t require a buy-in, while the second “blind” does have a $300 non-refundable buy-in.

I would like to add a prayer to my boss as he’s been struggling with being in the “doghouse” with his wife and work. I hope that things get better for him, because he feels like an infantry unit to me rather than a commander. He’s the ideal leader that I strive to work with and the same time that I would take a bullet for. It’s tough to have corporate on him for not exceeding numbers on certain corporate metrics but as well as stuff in regards to his wife. Boss, if you’re reading this, I am praying that things get better for you.